Here I am, sitting half-naked on the cold wooden floor in my new rented apartment, just changed my facebook status from “in a relationship since 2014” to “single”, lighting some incense, taking a deep breath and opening my heart to the new and unknowable.
My life is about to take a 180. And you know what? I’m ok with it. In fact, I’m more than ok with it, because i got a convincing feeling that there is something beautiful in the horizon for me. It’s like some kind of energy or vibration is telling me that something is about to happen.
Normally this kind of huge changes in circumstances and life situation would take a huge toll on my mental health, but not this time.I have accepted that the universe is in constant change and I’m here for the ride. So many things has changed in my life during the last six-eight months. Had I tried to hold on to everything that once was and fearing change instead of opening up to new possibilities and experiences, the only thing I would be left with is sadness and hurt.
I have come to realize that just because something is not constant or eternal, does not mean it isn’t beautiful. In my eyes, the fact that it’s contemporary can actually be what makes it beautiful. I find that there is some kind of comfort in knowing that everything has an ending. Thinking about the fact that what my life looks like now is probably completely different from what it will look like in 5 years gives me peace in my soul and sparks curiosity in my heart.
I think that there is something we can learn from every person that are entering our lives, even if they are just passing through. A friendship or relationship that ends is not a mistake, but a lesson and a new perspective. Thinking about it in this way makes it easier for me to feel thankful instead of feeling regret and remorse.
I will use these shifts in circumstances as a possibility to work more on my own inner life as well as voicing my opinion and thoughts about the things that matter to me. I have a goal of creating change where change is needed, giving a voice to the voiceless, and contribute to starting conversations about important topics.
I do not have all my shit figured out, and I probably never will. The best I can hope for is to be able to make as much of a positive impact on the world as possible during my lifetime, and you are welcome to join me on the Journey ♥